Sharon Sharon Hypnosis

I had a hypnotherapy session about my fear of being abandoned— and something completely unexpected came up.

Now, I’ve done a lot of hypnosis therapy sessions on myself. That’s part of why I believe in it so deeply—because it has brought me real change, again and again. I’m also someone who’s mostly cheerful. So honestly, I didn’t expect there was still so much buried pain left to uncover.

The Memory That Surfaced

In the session, we did a regression. I went back in time—and suddenly remembered something I had completely forgotten.

After my parents’ divorce, my father once came to visit me at my mother’s home in another city. He took me to a park and bought me a ceramic piggy bank. I still remember it in my hands. In the afternoon, we returned home. I was tired and fell asleep.

When I woke up—he was gone.

I held that little piggy bank and cried so much. I regretted falling asleep so deeply. If I had stayed awake, maybe I could have seen him one more time. That was the last moment I felt truly attached to him.

Out of pain, I made a quiet, unconscious decision: To keep him out of my life. To shut the door. To never forgive him—for leaving, for not taking custody, for all the ways I felt abandoned.

The Pain That Stayed

During the session, we did a lot of healing work to reframe the experience—to bring some softness to it, to round it into something less sharp. But the truth is: I just wasn’t ready to forgive. The pain was still alive. I cried so hard, my eyes were swollen red by the end of the session.

And then, for the next two days, I felt awful.

I was irritable, anxious, emotionally raw. Even though I live in a supportive environment, I found myself crying several times a day—sometimes for no obvious reason.

This is what I call a healing downer.

Many people go through this after a deep therapy or inner work session—especially when we uncover something the subconscious has buried for decades to keep us functioning. When it finally surfaces, it can feel like we’re falling apart.

How I Moved Through It

The good news is: I have integration tools. Lots of them. I did massages, took baths, practiced Hakomi somatic therapy, meditated. I also booked another hypnotherapy session—because often, that’s the fastest and deepest way for me to integrate.

To my surprise, on the fifth day, the downer disappeared by itself.

And here’s something important I noticed:

This kind of healing downer feels very different from a depression episode.

If a typical depression episode has a grey base tone with a few white spots in it, this downer felt like a white base tone with a few grey spots. As if the greyness was already there—but got stirred up. And once it moved, it started to flow out on its own.

Today is the seventh day. And I feel something new: A different kind of peace.

A New Kind of Inner Peace

This peace doesn’t come from staying calm or keeping everything together. It’s not from controlling my emotions or “being spiritual enough.”

It’s more like… the blue sky behind the clouds.

It’s just there now. My new base tone.

And if you’re going through your own healing downer, please know: It doesn’t mean something went wrong. It usually means something long-frozen is finally beginning to melt.